So, I’ve been working on a story that involves a myth I’ve heard about photography and souls.
The myth states that a photograph takes a part of a person’s soul.
I’ve always found this idea a little intriguing. Today, I was doing a little research on the myth to find out about its origins, and apparently it comes from many cultures (Aboriginal, Mayan and Native American to name a few) and its root is in mirrors.
In these cultures mirrors were thought to reflect the soul – for Mayans, mirrors were seen as a portal between this world and the next. Cameras got involved because of the mirrors used inside of them. Once a photograph was taken, it held a part of the soul that could never be returned. Any carelessness to the photo would be viewed as damaging to that part of the person’s soul.
This is the reason why some Native Americans refuse to have their picture taken and why in some churches photography is banned.
James W. Bailey, an artist with Native American roots, understands this belief. He created an exhibit called Stealing Dead Souls and questions the idea’s impact on non-living and inanimate objects, as well as commenting on the “death” of film. His now-defunct blog of the same name shows images, describes methods and begs questions which the project is trying to answer. He asks:
If taking a photograph of the living can steal souls, what happens if you photograph something dead or inanimate? Do the dead or non-living have souls? If so, can the souls of the dead be stolen by photographing them?
I’m feeling a little more enlightened and certainly more prepared to go forward with my story.
Wow. It’s really been a year since I graduated college. And in this year, what have I accomplished?
Attaining a degree.
That’s pretty important and its kick-started this time frame. I can’t say I’ve ever done it before who knows if and when I’ll do it again?
Been financially independent.
Except for borrowing money to pay off my smaller loan in full, I’ve paid for all other expenses on my own – and am chipping away at the loan chunk, as well.
Was hired full-time.
Although my first “big-girl job” doesn’t require a college degree, it’s still a real-deal, full-time job with benefits.
Photographed a wedding.
My mom’s co-worker needed a cheap photographer – being new to the field, I couldn’t charge much. April was satisfied. I’m available for freelance – I’ve just got to practice my stealth ninja skills.
Made a book.
Funny that I accomplished the task of making an actual book before I could complete writing one – and I’ve been writing for years.
Shot enough photos to make a small gallery.
And now the gallery will be available for viewing at my new apartment for a small cover of $3.
Read my poetry aloud in front of strangers.
Last May, there was a memorial service who my grandfather who passed away in January. As a result, I wrote a poem, which I titled On Portraits of People (acronym from Opop, which we called him). My brother and I collaborated and performed during the memorial service.
Discovered 120 film.
With my ThankYou points from my credit card, I purchased a little plastic camera called Diana F+ which I have grown to cherish. This camera took 120 film (medium format, square film) which I had never worked with before. In the year since this discovery, I have become even more fond of this type of film than 35mm. I now see photos in square format.
I feel bad that the majority of my recent updates have not been about me or my work. That’s because I haven’t been doing a whole lot.
It’s getting so close to a year since I graduated. That’s frightening.
There are things that I probably shouldn’t be mentioning on here, but let’s just say that I’m on a quest. And it’s a difficult one.
Luckily, I’m not alone and I’m being supported. And I’ve also got a place to live after my current lease ends.
I’ve spent the last couple weekends visiting friends and family and being domestic – when I go to bed tonight it will be the end of my fantastic series of weekends off.
I think that having weekends off is a fairly realistic goal for the future.
In the meantime, I’ve been trying to do a little bit more writing. I’ve started a couple short stories. It really shows that I need to get back on track.
The Polaroid experiment thus far has been a bust, but I’m waiting on a new battery for the camera. Once I’ve got that, hopefully we’ll be on track and then there may be updates galore! I’m hoping that’s what the issue is, otherwise, I may as well be colored confused.
As read on May 30, 2009 Harvey Nathaniel Vincent’s Memorial Service:
On Portraits Of People
He turned away, slowly
and she didn’t notice.
Although it was painful, it was expected;
but to her it felt like it happened in an instant.
It wasn’t the first.
When she was born, she thought she had forever.
That everyone she would ever need was right there
in her circle.
Always there,
no matter how far away.
Despite the expanded web around her,
she didn’t feel quite the same.
As one circle drew closer, it felt emptier
because he had always been there.
The old man was one of the few she’d always known to be constant.
He didn’t mean to,
but he had to.
It was time
and something she needed to grow.
He writhed in pain and as his body became iron-cast, he made himself look away.
No one noticed that he continued to peek through the eyes in the back of his head.
At least he isn’t suffering
but couldn’t he have waited one more day?
She felt dizzy.
He (her father, his son) wished he could have said good bye.
She (her grandmother and his wife) had been preparing for a long time.
She was most ready, but it was hard on her, too.
Rest now, merry gentleman.
You’ll now have no nightmares in your sleep
but, also, no lady to kiss your cheek,
to wipe your tears and
calm your shrieks.
She’s waiting for the day that she’ll see you again
so the neighbors upstairs can gawk and
stare just like they did the first time.
They had been involved in this romantic affair
that would have been deemed at the time
A Scandal
so important to a family
but because of frivolous youth,
it’s as if no one needs to hear.
But the affair ended many years later
in death,
after a wedding
and two children plus two grandchildren.
As one web expanded, another collapsed.
When a piece from the center wiggles free,
everything gets thrown.
It’s all off balance.
The huddle waxes and wanes
and the wounded and disoriented soldiers recuperate
and recoil, knowing deep down that everything was right.
The young girl – though she had already grown –
felt no other urge than to crawl on hands and knees.
She felt comfort in distraction
his family couldn’t be there for him.
Her father was a child once
and the old war veteran took him to the beach.
The little boy danced as the sand scalded his feet.
Her father chuckled behind him and when the umbrella was up
and their bodies were cooled and covered in sticky sand,
together they scraped the sand into buckets,
collected seashells and other beachy adornments
just to build a palace in which they could never live.
He sat on the inside as they built the castle around him
so that he could be king.
When the sun went down, father carried son home
and the castle stood until the tide came in.
Logically,
life is the blink of an eye, the snap of a shutter.
As quickly as the houses show and disappear from the windows of trains, moments seem to linger
and eventually manage to fade.
The memories kept the family laughing
and the stories kept the old man alive..
The young girl did grow into an old woman
and with her brush, she painted a colorful portrait
that they hung on the wall
and years after she died would put in the attic
like all the rest
for they never knew the figure.
After all, it was just taking up space.
R.I.P. Opop. We love you.
January 12, 2009.
